I get so close.. every time.. so god damed close, and then nothing. don't get me wrong, i'm HAPPY!! oh yes! but it's still bad for me i guess. well, not really bad, i have what i did and actually it's still better, but i' was so close!!! but i'm sure it's going to be that gets to mess it up. so damned close!!!!!! SHIT SHIT!! ok, well i'm happy and its great. god damn.. what is wrong with me?